Don't Settle sis. Jesus died to give you access to an abundant life!
I remember struggling with feelings of discontentment inside of a relationship I was hoping would end in marriage. I know how it feels to hope for something so long that you eventually convince yourself to stop hoping and just be surprised when it finally happens. I also know how it feels to want something so bad that you find yourself compromising in sin and settling because of being afraid of losing what you have and being alone.
You fear losing what you have and being alone because you are still holding on to your life. When you made the decision to give your life to Christ what you were supposed to do was lay down your life...die to yourself and allow Jesus to live through you. That's why it is called giving your life to Christ or being born again.
John 12:25 says "The person who loves his life [eventually] loses it, but the one who detaches his life from this world [and is concerned with pleasing God] will find true life and enjoy it forever! amp/tpt
You have been given access through Jesus to true life. You are a new creation and that means you have a new identity.
You have been desiring to develop a deeper relationship with God and apart of that journey is understanding what He says about who you are.
You fear losing what you have and being alone because you are still holding on to your life. When you made the decision to give your life to Christ what you were supposed to do was lay down your life...die to yourself and allow Jesus to live through you. That's why it is called giving your life to Christ or being born again.
John 12:25 says "The person who loves his life [eventually] loses it, but the one who detaches his life from this world [and is concerned with pleasing God] will find true life and enjoy it forever! amp/tpt
You have been given access through Jesus to true life. You are a new creation and that means you have a new identity.
You have been desiring to develop a deeper relationship with God and apart of that journey is understanding what He says about who you are.